It's the same as usual with brain processing power high up while body drain off wanting no more than to fall asleep right now yet I can't. Thinking of things that could slow down thoughts only to remind of of a time where time really seems to slow down or even stop for me first time ever in my life.

It was the day you decided to confess after so long. A secret that I didn't know at all while others pretty much knew it all. It was next stop to get off when you pluck up courage to start your sentence while I was dreamy and not listening to any of your words till the end I realised you were talking to me. "我很喜欢你，可以让我照顾你吗？" the only words I heard and remembered. At that point in time, I saw everything around us seem to slow down and the only thing I wanted to do was to get out of situation quick and fast. I never knew what to say and how to react under such conditions only thing was to break it and run off as I alighted my brain got confused flooding with all images and possibility.

Took me hours, days actually weeks to figure everything all out. There was so much thoughts in me with mixed feelings and confusion without anyone around to consult and seek advice for next move. Thereafter we see each other over and over again, could feel how much hurt you had withstand yet plucking no courage to ever talk again. Sometimes, I see you around wondering to avoid or to speak up without reaching a decision we just pass by each other over and over again. Till today I'm still sorry that I could not step forward.

it's been a long long time, thinking about it at times for past two years but nothing could be mention until now I have no idea why would I do such a thing right here, right now spitting it out. Not that I reminisce of our past neither hoping to be on good terms again but just writing on somewhere someone could or could not see.

p.s there's so much more details to aftermath happenings yet no point to words it out.