what is this?
Saturday, 4 August 2012 | 9:10 pm | 0 hearts♥
A month later, I end up crying like waterfall through skype
with mum. Not because I miss home but things just happen over and over again
like im back home with sister and dad can’t be a little kinder and nicer to do
things up with initiative. Mum is having tough time cause if I’m at home, I
would help her to settle things despite annoyance with anger at dad and sis.
But right now I’m so far away yet they are still the same all I could do is
hearing from mum getting the frustration yet not able to do anything.
I guess that’s not the only reason for crying, met up with
new team for the rest of two semester for project yesterday and feel like I
can’t cope with school and feeling so depressed. I even talked to my egg while trying to flip it and failed, wash the dirty sink, cook things that I had never done before but taste nice actually LOL.
Day 21
Saturday, 28 July 2012 | 11:55 am | 0 hearts♥
Day 21 here.Adaption is going well but I hate the night here at home. It's too scary and depressing for me coming back home with silence and emptiness even if there are people around they would all cope in their room. Had an hour nap yesterday 5pm and awake in shock looking at how dark the sky is when it's only 6pm, felt so lost not knowing what to do neither anyone around to talk to. Last night was bad having the guy not back and another girl not back for 2 days leaving the whole house to my friend and I. Could be a good thing for us but I would rather everyone is back at home making places dirty and noise with their foot steps and cooking. On the first two day of arrival, I was alone at home without seeing anyone and night comes it was so depressing and staying in my room nowhere to go. Right now is better with my friend moving in and time to time knock on her door to gossip before back to silence again but somehow I prefer the guy who moved out to be in the house at least he walks around and able to see a human being than my friend hiding in her room at all times.
Apart emotional uproar i'm still normal in front of people somehow nobody notice it with swelling Rudolph nose and eyes. Manage to become "friend" with room mate and someone from the other house coming from same origin except for the one move in recently not seeing her most of the time. Went to the city twice, architecture are awesome especially their library i'm so fascinated by that might end up going there to wander rather than study. If possible I might end up touring around the city weekly but on the other hand academic workload is horrid wonder if I would have time to get out.
School started, depressing and sad not being able to grasp the momentum of lectures and tutorials brings me back to secondary school days when I could never make sense of classes nor score decently and left alone. Project sound disastrous to me and it's like a nightmare merely based on seeing the scope even before we start on it. This brings me to realization if I had chosen the right path of BBIS, from time to time I still think that I had brought trouble to myself for making the decision to be here yet there is no hard decision to turn back.
-counting days to be back home :)
Hey 20th is here!
Friday, 25 May 2012 | 2:57 am | 0 hearts♥
Hey 20th
is here!
Thinking of
it, I guess next year birthday I would have to give it a miss though it’s supposed
to be one of the greatest birthday events in life.
Got out
early of the house in the morning to settle my things and had to buy sister ice
cream cake and head home before going to celebrate mine but time was delayed and
delayed till ahjuma decided to pick me up instead of me travelling at snail
speed. Reach home had a change of clothes and went out lunch with mum, kind of
spoil their plan but what to do we are all hungry.
Didn’t know
where I’m heading but had to follow them blindly, so as my hunch told me we
went to skate! Someone so road hazard skating around with big movement but he’s
not afraid to fall therefore he learned the tricks of ice skating within an
hour! Something awesome for me to learn once again, hahahs I still couldn’t
skate but walk on ice. Manage to skate slightly with them pulling me around but
once attempt to stop will get the wobble of falling soon.
I saw marble
slab while going up the level, intended to went over take a look but thought I should
wait for them come out who knows they were walking from that direction and
someone lied say want to eat ice cream so we went in take a seat. I saw this
uncle taking a cake walking thought was another table but ta da! It’s was mine!
Obviously they planned it a minute ago while I was in the toilet. Uncle was so
friendly even gave us card to get 10% for celebration of birthday. Their cake
was really awesome everything was ice cream except for the bottom part like 3cm
was cake I guess to get the structure of the cake. It was so big and only three
of us were there, though ice cream cake was nice but ate so much for each
person. Thanks for the cake guys!
Somehow off
to another unknown location, ahjuma kept spam messages but I didn’t even reply
her HAHAHA! Eventually after talkative moments in the car, after ERP beep beep
beep, after jam jam jam, we reach marina square once again I’m there for the
second time this month. Given a code to find the store, I thought we were going
some food place but turn out to be bear bear place didn’t know what I had to do
in there till ahjuma went to counter and talk. All of a sudden I realized that “bear”
above was my present and give a name whatever not everything done in a blur
manner and saw two cute faces coming out.
As ahjuma
style we went round aimlessly till decided head off to JP for food and rot
there for so long creating noises. Come to think of it, I realized the staff
attitude there wasn’t really nice or maybe we were too noisy for them LOL. Took
pretty much picture that looks like comic strip when string them together,
eventually MIA person came to find us and join just in time for the cake! So JP
had to close we went out right there was this grass patch, guys sat there like …….
But the view is really nice, would be nice if we can sit there talk and watch
the view but I guess everyone was tired with work. Departed pretty late but
grateful to both ahjuma to be driving and able to send us home else I think
after midnight we will still be on our way.
I find the
birthday abit weird with our usual style to be quiet most of the times and not
much topic to talk about. There is still joy in it having them planned for me
events and just follow them, had fun and jokes occasional silent atmosphere. This
is the first time having such birthday treat from friends and went to so many
places with staff celebrate with me hahahs so weird and funny. Thanks for such
wonderful memories; I’ll bring them together with me to Australia.
