Day 21 here.

Adaption is going well but I hate the night here at home.  It's too scary and depressing for me coming back home with silence and emptiness even if there are people around they would all cope in their room. Had an hour nap yesterday 5pm and awake in shock looking at how dark the sky is when it's only 6pm, felt so lost not knowing what to do neither anyone around to talk to. Last night was bad having the guy not back and another girl not back for 2 days leaving the whole house to my friend and I. Could be a good thing for us but I would rather everyone is back at home making places dirty and noise with their foot steps and cooking. On the first two day of arrival, I was alone at home without seeing anyone and night comes it was so depressing and staying in my room nowhere to go. Right now is better with my friend moving in and time to time knock on her door to gossip before back to silence again but somehow I prefer the guy who moved out to be in the house at least he walks around and able to see a human being than my friend hiding in her room at all times.

Apart emotional uproar i'm still normal in front of people somehow nobody notice it with swelling Rudolph nose and eyes. Manage to become "friend" with room mate and someone from the other house coming from same origin except for the one move in recently not seeing her most of the time. Went to the city twice, architecture are awesome especially their library i'm so fascinated by that might end up going there to wander rather than study. If possible I might end up touring around the city weekly but on the other hand academic workload is horrid wonder if I would have time to get out.

School started, depressing and sad not being able to grasp the momentum of lectures and tutorials brings me back to secondary school days when I could never make sense of classes nor score decently and left alone. Project sound disastrous to me and it's like a nightmare merely based on seeing the scope even before we start on it. This brings me to realization if I had chosen the right path of BBIS, from time to time I still think that I had brought trouble to myself for making the decision to be here yet there is no hard decision to turn back.

-counting days to be back home :)






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