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I live life with simple rules.
I care for those who would also care.
Maybe I can’t give the best companionship,
but I can treasure all good memories.
Maybe sometimes you don’t like my personality,
but behind my imperfections,
I can still be there to lend a hand when you need me.






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Death seems near.
Friday, 13 April 2012 | 3:15 am | 0 hearts♥

Come to realize that death seems to be everywhere and anywhere, just an instant it could just take control of us. Monday, found out that one of mum best friend, Connie was sick since last December till right now and didn’t get to recovered.  She didn’t bother to inform us thinking what good it might do anyway everyone will know after she gone to another world, though as friend it hurt to hear that but I can understand her thoughts. If I were in her shoes, neither would I want to notify everyone just for the sake that I’m leaving soon therefore gets everyone to come. She was born with heart problem despite estimated to live no more than 4 years; she had live more than that, 2 more years to forty. As what mum said, though it’s a pity but on the other hand is actually a blessing for her to live so long as compared to other kids which almost all has been gone by now. Nevertheless still feel sad for her and especially after going through problems and problems in her life while thinking life get better it took a turn instead. Currently she could only stay on her bed, even talking means hassle to her making her hard to breathe. I guess the saddest part was her being unable to get close with her dog, she can’t take care of him anymore everyday just look at each other waiting for death to come. Heartache to them knowing that death will come and there is nothing they could do at all, I’m certain that by any chance she left first, the dog might just sad to death.

On Tuesday went out to try on skate with ‘giraffe’, halfway thunder and lightning came with darks clouds emerging. We got to get into shelter during those moments lightning kept coming and was scary though he tried to be calm but I know he’s scared because he is way too tall and easy to get strike. Aftermath we had little chat and told me about how he was unable to see his future and kept having the hunch that he might die before 30. When we tried to get into shelter he just had moments of thoughts might just get strike and be gone. Somehow sound dramatic but I guess some people do have those kind of intuition.
Just now heard from a friend about great grandma condition seems like either way also same conclusion but they have no idea what choice to make.

Been coming across various articles all about death be it natural causes or human causes as well though I guess it’s has always been like that but didn’t realize them till recently so many deaths every now and then.





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