I Don't Care. but can I?
Monday, 30 May 2011 | 11:42 pm | 0 hearts♥
I Don't Care - 2NE1Alright, the tough is over now at least for a week shall have my break to sleep more and do what is necessary to prevent regrets :)
Today had BPM wondering, worried about how things till turn out and got lectured by her for saying we blame her cause that is the easiest thing to do and we do not make an effort to review, WTH? Well I agree to my concept is bad but I still do my part okay? Maybe she's not referring to me but still.....
I feel like giving up BPM & stop trying to hard for 'A' anymore, I tried for the past 4 weeks but always seems to have no improvement at all. Why is this bloody hell my core module instead of elective, if it's elective at least I won't try so hard and stress out. Oh ITPM been getting B without know why but I figure it out to focus on core instead since elective will be additional certificate from now on thus even A for 15 weeks still it's just a cert without affecting overall GPA. Mid term evaluation is coming up most likely to be during holidays but coding has not even been done much!! I realise I'm not feeling as stress as previously but I do start to eat alot, this is bad sign turning stress into food. I always want not to care but end up always like cannot leh it affect my life forever ---Enough of school related stuff now---
Well, recently been sleeping really bad and bodyache...ahh must be a sign of growing old hahas. Hoping to be able to meet up with friends. I think my mind is screwed, this post is getting all over the place & here i'm gonna end it :)
nineteenth
Tuesday, 24 May 2011 | 11:06 pm | 0 hearts♥
Take break before going off to sleep (:
Well, mine 19th is now over and soon shall be my sister 12th in another 90minutes. This year intended to go out with IEP friends but end up only two could make it but nevertheless still better than rot at home without celebration (:
Initially was so forward looking to Saturday 22th May 2011 but as it approaching I don’t really look forward because 23rd May 2011 is a Monday & I’m having BPM on that day! Anyway, on Saturday my friends kept pushing the time back further to meet so I watched TV and relax till time almost up then prepare. My eyes closing being so relax while watching the show, suddenly Yoyo bark continuously I turn my head & saw Siew Ying. LOL at that instant I knew she lied to me about meeting later. But I was so happy to have such surprise but had to expose my house to them :(
They brought a cake, a very big fruit cake just for me being the nice big sister I asked my sister over to join me and cut the cake together. She really arh, don’t know how to appreciate. After cake, went out to I have no idea where and they refused to tell me despite Siew Ying said she will list down few places and let me choose. Took MRT to Bishan and change to circle line then realise it would be faster if alight at Dhoby Ghaut to get to Bras Basah. We walked through streets, sweat with the scorching hot sun, lost and find for map finally we reach Mint Museum of Toys.
I saw so many Mickey & Minnie! Yes, my favourite character when I was a kid, I’m a fan of Looney tunes & warner brothers J & I still watch those cartoon now! They had so much collections of the toys but not really as much as I expected, saw Bunny Bugs(I know it’s the other way round but it rhyme either way), Popeye the sailor man(Last week NS, my teammate pronounce it as pop eye. LOL), Betty the big boobs(my secondary friend used to call it), Batman(fat one!), Snoopy!, Ultraman, 7 dwarfs, noddy, 3 little pigs etc….they had different version based on years and country. I saw this watches of Mickey Mouse, ♥ I had one too when I was young almost the same as those inside the cabinet with red leather strap.
2 hours later we ended the visit to the toy museum, walked through Bugis to locate food but really no idea what to eat then suggested western food and nothing pretty nice there so MRT again to Plaza Sing & went into Fruit Paradise since there was less people. Their design was really nice but so sad cannot sit at the corner to enjoy outside view and the design, their food hum….well I don’t know but tart seems not bad which became my birthday breakfast in the end.
Monday 23rd May 2011, here comes the day to see xxx but is that fate!? She didn’t come and module chair stood in and we voice out to her about our opinions. Well I’m pretty sure there won’t be much changes and in worst case we shall suffer for next 10 weeks. Spent the day like any other normal day except saw a lot of my friends somehow, and facebook was flooded with wishes :D We are just Z generation uses facebook and phone can be thrown away already.
Tuesday 24th May 2011, today lesson was short and came home early since no internet connection in school. While doing my quiz struggling to understand that weird question, again Yoyo bark ferociously & I saw 3 guys with cake standing outside my house :D
My beloved cousins came, I thought they failed to come out since they were busy and did not come yesterday but here they are with another surprise and cake. Hahas this year, parent never celebrates with us and no cake at all but end up having 2 cakes! Last year didn’t intend to buy cake too but in the end one of my friends came with cake out of the blue, conclusion – birthday must have a cake. Hahas. I was busy trying to complete quiz and let them wait for me finally time’s up for quiz and went out to chat with them then back at laptop to rush RJ, an hour pass and finally I’m done and went out for dinner. Lucky today was Banking & everything was relatively easier compare to other modules. It’s just so fun and happy to see them, listen to them, and spend time together. Took a couple of pictures & they left to go back Malaysia hahas so glad they took the effort out and celebrate for me despite it’s only like 2-3hours. ♥♥♥
Thursday, 19 May 2011 | 9:16 pm | 0 hearts♥
If you don’t help yourself, no one else will.
Tuesday, 17 May 2011 | 1:37 am | 0 hearts♥
I’m looking forward to the day but I’m telling myself not to in order to prevent hyper chiong-ing of the week.
Went to jog today since tomorrow is going to be another holiday and today lesson is much more comfy than others. I tried to ran but did not even complete one big round while they ran like much more, this cannot be compare cause mine stamina is zero. Hehes I tried to push myself slightly further while going up slope which I don’t like and I ran up running fast halfway, too fast to pace up with my breadth and finally pause to wait for them and also thinking I should be cautious just in case I faint due to lack of oxygen transportation. Felt really good to sweat non-stop especially when I stopped and feel the heat and sweat coming down but not till the level of sweat dripping down from my head…
I had been dreaming about some random people but not really random on the other hand. I never like this person in school and somehow we went shopping together….wth but it was a short one. Also dreamt about this guy know from internship but forgot what he was doing there.
Dreamt of piglet twice once was really weird when we meet up supposedly to be in school environment but end up there was this super big spaceship? Or ship in the air like the airplane tries to connect to the terminal which was meant to be our school. It was really an awesome sight but school suddenly become this shopping centre with a lot of Food that stink the place cause of it’s aroma. Second time was last night, Piglet & I was doing FYP together and this advisor commented about our project not being good or whatever. Weird part is we specialise in different area, different school but can still do FYP together with only 2 people? Ohh then I dreamt about meeting my FYP team whereby this lovely place with lots of others in the morning and someone was late which made me worry cause my lesson start at 9:45am and it was 9:00am this person was still nowhere to be found.
Somehow my dream shifted to one of the person I know during internship don’t know what the hell he was cooking and look really unpleasant taste it will be to me despite finally it look very decent. I think there was this someone who matters to me and my relatives was there and seems to know it and they were all waiting for me to speak but I refused and the person left, I ran no idea in mind to where but I think they thoughts I was going to chase after that person ahahahs but I end up ran back to my own house with all my relatives followed after me and everyone was gathering at my house.
All the recent weird dream I had recently, some dream just kept popping up in my mind during the day as if to tell me something or to remind me about something but well dreaming is always what I had so it doesn’t matter anyway. At least now I can sleep well at night compared to beginning of semester stress till cannot even sleep properly. But then again UT is coming arhhhhhhh.
suddenly,
Tuesday, 10 May 2011 | 11:57 pm | 0 hearts♥
Week 3.
Tuesday, 3 May 2011 | 11:33 pm | 0 hearts♥
Moving on to week three now.
Busy like hell but specifically, not really just that I'm slow in doing things which drag over period of time whereby someone else could have already accomplish so much more. Efficient.
Just realize that I had made my teammate to do more for some FYP tasks because I was always thinking I have 5 days module no time to do it. Then again would that be too much?
I had been slacking, refusing to do school related work for the past two days and rot at home. Seems good but greater attraction for more slack and less motivation for school work. These two weeks just felt as though I'm a CEO of xxx company having worldwide business around not being able to make time out for non-business related. The fact is, I'm just using that as an excuse to get away from greater responsibility. Nah, I'm just faking. True hard fact is this is driving me to more emo each day. I can't sleep at night despite feeling tired, but on next morning I am awake around seven to eight be it weekends or days.
I'm not a human anymore nor zombie yet but a panda.