Your life plays out on the shadows of the wall. You turn the light on to erase it all. You wonder what it’s like to not feel worthless. So open all the blinds and all the curtains.

ALY AND AJ, NO ONE

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Supposedly, university fees was to be borne by parents till recently they were talking over dinner and I start to see the fact that it seem like I was supposedly to be the one paying instead of them. How do I phrase it? Mum was asking dad about university fees, then he start to say then CPF there leh also need to pay what etc.. hinting as if I should be thankful that he is paying when I was suppose to be the one paying. I was kind of wth,

1. the issues with $$ isn't suppose to be my fault because!  His sister got herself into debts overseas and came to us to help her out so one sum vanished. 
2. Secondly, his mother was like wth last time when my parents were working together she wanted them to hand over every single cents to her instead for my parents to save for the future so didn't manage to save much either. 
3. Thirdly, kind of most angry one. Previous two was like already happen so nothing to be grumpy about but he just bought a $300 ipod for my sister 2 days ago after the university issues. 

well I understand that if you are really like financial problem in supporting me to university of course I will be considerate to go work and study at the same time to support myself. But things does really seem like this you know. Like now so many things I need to start buying then there you are like wanting me to use my own money when you don't let me work during vacation, when I don't have much angpao money also. If at least I start to work now, saving will start to be there then won't be so xin ku in the future.

Actually I am seriously unhappy with him over money issues when I NEED to buy my things like laptop, shoes, etc... which i NEED and yet he like huh....then I start to sian already always hearing them about saying then the money leh? OMG WTH you happily buy new phone for yourself which only lasted few days and sold it off, happily buy new bicycles cost over thousands, happily buy ipod for sister which she obviously don't NEED it yet when I need, you down there HARRRRRRRRR.

1 word: BIASED. Say only ma but I know right to the very deep end, this is the fact. Based on so many things & occasions I been and seen through.





My 12 years old sister has  an iPod - apple product when I don't even have one yet :(





full stop to year 2.

everything finally ends but that doesn't lessen my burden in any way. the truth is, it's just the beginning of everything. I hate this, only with a week to rest which is definitely not enough for me after endless assignments and tests. Just as the picture said.  Guess I could only really make use of this 7days or rather 5days to sleep&play all I want. I had to stop my driving lesson and the worst part is, extend my PDL God knows when will I be able to finish everything and get my license.

1. DSA UT3 was disaster, there none that I know how to do seriously even had blank for 5 marks questions.
2. Decided to revise for next 2 days UT in order to do better, at least an attempt to make up for my laziness for UT2
3. Then I saw my confirmation mail that made me hyper happy but not for even 3 seconds
4. I got a C+ for php UT2 after so much effort
5. IEP seems bad on a detail look of having to work 9 hours for 6 weeks with pay of $750 but not sure if the workload would worth that much
6. Right now feel like rojak all mixed up - unable to concentrate, no mood for anything. 

Aren't he  adorable? I want lab pup too if only I get to move to private estate first. He reminds me of Creamy! Hopefully we will be able to visit her after everything ends.

The only failure is not to try

 - George Clooney





school's over but surely GPA drop at least maintain in the range of 3 would be enough.

UT3 is coming, haven study.

Assignment result, WAD 1&2 : 69/100, DSA 1: 33/50 DSA 2: 53/70
apparently I was stupid enough to make the same mistake TWICE, twice misunderstood my faci questions and said I didn't do when I clearly did and also obviously he does not see our codes so what's the point of submitting? amazingly my java was kind of good, unexpected thought it be like around passing mark.

Time to select proposal, feel so pessimistic looking through them 90% I don't know them at all and I kind of decide to go only IT-general proposals, rest are too tough. I don't know how am I going to survive through all, even if I did by then I would be barely alive.

cough still on and off, last night was on IM and intend to study but all of a sudden felt like i'm going to drop off. told mummy I need to sleep now before I drop on the floor *lightbulb* it's effect of medicine. Couldn't really fall asleep with brain being active but physically broke.


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