Though I chose 5 days module but I really did not expect them to let me take 5 since my GPA drop & I'm out of top 10.

Imagine 5 days module with FYP on Saturday, I'm really worried. Worst part is, they change the rules of 15/15 and others which made it much more easier to flunk. Lastly, I just realized to graduate I have to take 5 core but I only took 2 core instead, I'm might not be able to graduate.

School fees is also another matter, imagine you paid more than $3,000 for those extra modules and end up you cannot get into the University. That's is terrible. Especially right now, financial seems to be a problem and my sister today told us she want to get into a private secondary school with 250/month school fees which 4 years will be $12,000 still have leftover for me to buy air ticket. I been bother by school fees months ago when I learnt that I would be the one paying my University school fees, apparently got to take loan.

 I hate this. Didn't even tell me beforehand and now crap what the shit. Honestly I tried my best not to say this but seriously. Why the hell you have the means to live out there and use credit card like nobody business and what no money to pay come here take money from us and now my University fees are gone yet you happy go lucky there still want more money. This person is my dad's second sister who is now living in .. I forgot where but a very good place. Money Money Money why the hell are you bothering and messing up our life. Why is there a price to everything.

I doubt I will survive through this, I am determine to run this through but I am afraid I lose myself in this. Initially I never set my mind set on going into University but rather just go along and see if I will be able to make it in the end. When told to have to pay for these extra modules everything changes. If I am going to pay for this then I shall make this happen. It will be tough, tough. When timetable was out, I started thinking, envying others who are not bother by academic result but on long term basis this is not what I want. I don't want to have those thoughts in the past of regrets after regrets there is nothing I could accomplish but at least get good grade or sufficient for me to get a decent job and live through my cravings. (I don't have much cravings though)

Even if I get through this and accepted into University, another matter if I would be able to graduate there within 2 years.