Sister is getting from bad to worse, soon to be a bad student. Mum was called to school today and went to meet the teachers that lasted over 2hours. I had never tried that before seriously, especially when making my teacher boiling hot so much that tear up worksheet and flip my bag out to find homework, things that I had never and won't be able to do. She has been turning bad for quite awhile with her nice goody teacher patiently waiting and tolerating her nonsense hoping she would get better someday yet it went worse. Her teacher snapped leaving last resort to call mum to go school at the split second instead of I want to see your mum tomorrow which usually would be this way. 

What to do? Fact is, my mum told me that she used to be like this too when she was young but back then teacher could cane student so, what my sis do now is just a reflection of what she has done. I been thinking that perhaps I'm too obedient and never had been on rebellious mode thus making their life easy and now with a normal child to rebel at this stage become so tough for them to handle. Whatever. 

Meow Kheng asked me if I am interested to get a job which seems to be pretty easy. Told mum and she objected. I was pretty upset  but not angry that she everything seems also cannot when it comes to me trying to find job. Seriously, I'm sad that at the age of 18 I am living a life of age 14-16. 

At the age of 18, I only wish to get a job not as if I want to go clubbing or do anything that is bad yet she don't allow. As parent, I know she care but she shouldn't she let go off me slightly a bit more? Which 18 years old would have the life of mine, everyday home to school and school to home. Using phone to call mum instead of friends, tagging beside mum whenever I go out. As long she says she don't like nor agree then cancel it. Going out yet still think of mum in mind. 

She used to be open minded about things but right now as I grow older starting to identify what I wants and only to hear her saying objections I find that she only talks to be open minded. 

Another side I thought of was, when I was still young she started to let me have the freedom of 17 years old but she only limit till there and now when it's time to let a bit looser and she didn't. Thus, seems like I'm turning rebellious or making herself seems so selfish. 

Next perhaps it because then I didn't not start wanting what she said she open minded about and when I tried to get it then she start going the opposite way. 

I know this is long maybe side track too till it does not make any sense to you but anyway at least I got off something. 

I'm going to breathe.