Monday, 30 August 2010 | 1:20 am | 0 hearts♥
RANTINGS RANTINGS RANTINGS
This post wills all going to be my RANTINGS, everything that I hadn’t been saying out all these times.
I realize that I had been enduring everything by my mum, sis and dad. I didn’t complain out much to them of their behavior like I used to and get very annoyed by them so much that I just lost my temper.
Last week, went to see a good friend of my mum, also a counselor consult her about changing my sister to a better person. Had a good long session there and finally, something that I had been waiting for was finally spoken. ---- I should lead my own life and stop interfering, doing more than what my responsibility required. Lately I was reminded me a nickname given to me by a secondary friend, superwoman being the reason of not needing to sleep much yet still able to work as normal person LOLS. One day I went to ask my sister too and she agreed not because I do not sleep much but I was able to handle so many things at a time.
Mum start to take charge of disciplining my sister personally instead of sending me to go and handle her and only get my mum over when she does not listen to me. Oh well, a good start but….
Knowing my good sister, 讲话不清不出让人听了不耐烦，做什么事都不考虑到后果，骂又骂不听。She often step on bombs with her weakness mention above and usually I would be the one to help her out everything before she start to get all the scolding from them but now I would be able to help her much and just let her be with them dealing with her testing their patience and getting punished as long as not too serious otherwise I would not care much about it. Time for me to rest and stop being too nice to her end up making myself frustrated.
It’s been tough and I wonder how I had been able to do so well in the past thinking back now. Trying to help sister to cover up or something before parents find out then after they knew and scolded her then have to find a way help her or something. Challenging part is after you told her what she had done wrong, what she need to do next and what going to happen next if she do not follow what I told her yet she like a sotong not knowing what to do and still make the same mistake.
Halfway my mum scold her then her dad will come angry and scold my mum or getting angry at her for scolding my sister. Both of them will end up quarrelling over my sister’s fault with her dad thinking she should not be punish or scolded for sister wrong doing while my mum thinks she should be corrected and after repeating of using carrot finally she take a step forward not yet taking out her weapon but only scold. After so many years all I can see the fruits of the sow seed is: 宠坏。 So now, realizing she is so vegetable he start to discipline her too but going to 2 extreme ends. 1 is to use carrot, other is to use stick (cane) fyi, when he cane, tsk tsk tsk too much force used leaving her bruise. Pretty lot of times it made me go berserk and ended up scolding him and so pissed off at him, that will be another part of the story but continuing on where I left….oh ya after they quarreled, my will come over to find me and start telling me all her troubles and so on then I have to go optimistic, 苦中作乐。It’s like holding on to everyone trouble and emotion, as if I’m a rubbish bin? Or the places where they dump all the rubbish all over Singapore and burn them off like I’m the last stop to hold everything and consumed them off.
