Saturday, 17 July 2010 | 11:26 pm | 0 hearts♥
因为有太多不愉快的回忆让我很不想回顾过去。
Recently I realized that I was getting more fearful of reminiscing back the past, I used to hate my past and how I wish I had the ability to start over again. Right now I am not hateful of it rather I am scared of it.
Last Saturday, sister went for NE show and left 3 of us went out for lunch and my mum started about discussion of my sister behavior and attitude. Being objective mother, she knows clearly that we need the help of professional but dad was very subjective and don’t really agree to seek help though he may ask he does not object when he is with his justification. At some point of time, mum talked about since we know then we should seek help and prevent the past from happening again. At that instant, I seem to know clearly what she was talking about though it was not clear cut straight. I remembered of happening those times, it started out once a while and eventually it became so often that I broke down several times a year. I could remember each event so clearly and still feeling those emotions right inside me with cold limbs but fearless when I stood right in front of him and rebuked against him.
Recently when I hear shouts and yelling around my house when I’m at home it just brings me back to those time, feeling those pain and upset over again.