Tuesday, 28 July 2009 | 8:57 pm | 0 hearts♥
Will it be better for me to die first or for step-dad to die first?I hate him!
He actually wanted to throw Creamy out of the house when my mum quarreled with him
When I knew, I was so damn pissed off and push him away and warned him.
Then I feel like collapsing down like I had asthma attack.
I have been suppressing with all my might about them quarreling and throwing their temper and now I can no longer stand them and broke down for the 3-4th time for the year.
mummy tried to defend him when it's all so useless with our own eyes witnessing what happen every time when he threw his temper.
He does not care about his responsibility and went off every time doing the same thing and yet we have to hold on to it every time.
All of us controlled ourselves bear in mind so hard yet he doesn't and even blaming us when he is the one doing the wrong and repeating the same errors like the loop.
once I was young, he wanted to throw me out then followed by hitting my sister and throwing things when he is in bad mood which then lead to my dogs and now what even want to throw my dog out!
so when i find him to be annoyance is it true for me to kick him out too?
what came to my mind in the past did came true now and how am I going to trust him now when he never do what he promise despite he said he would.
I tried so hard to forget every thing but whenever there he goes again everything just come back into my mind and take another period of time to hid them away.
tell me how to break-free.