Thursday, 2 April 2009 | 10:50 am | 0 hearts♥
Out of the blue i thought of someone.Yesterday went to Mp to send PP for surgery.
Took a long time before we got him back home.
A day without PP, you felt so weird right.
He looks fine and good but throwing tantrum i guess.
hopefully he will recover soon like Yoyo =)
I saw this black cat yesterday
it is very skinny looks like got beaten up
fur is very messy but its not a local cat
I wanted to carry back home but when i get back it's not there.
I also saw another cat looks like Siamese it sort of get ready to chase after me -.-
I saw so many cats yesterday and the day before saw so many dogs.
Recently i also got step by creamy on my eye
its got blue black but mostly covered up by my panda eyes hehes
I was listening to this song and got reminded of someone in church.
This feeling seems to come nearer and growing stronger...
I don't really feel like going church anymore,
Everytime I'm alone, always.
Started off with attending church alone without much bothered and met cell people
soon, spdcl change and i dun want to attend cg anymore.
But my friend is still there with me for church so i went along too
now i left cg and my friend change church.
Maybe you think I'm getting so emo again.
But its not.
If i don't think about it and leave it there and get busy with other things the problem will still be there.
It won't get solve by itself...
I still likes to go church but I hate to be alone there
Making friends and meeting new people is not easy for me
it's hard. hard you know. so hard.
i did met one but soon she didn't attend anymore and always : "i've got no obligation, you know."(sickening)
So many familiar faces left and i dun feel that comfort anymore.
In the past I could stand there till my mum comes but now i rather walk away to the Koufu.
It's so contradicting.
One hand i dun feel like going
the other i felt so weird to skip church.
If i don't go on sunday, then wed comes and i miss church
If i go on sunday, sat comes i miss church and hopes it come soon.
I am happy to be there but hates to be there alone.
I don't want to change church again..
I love this place.
I thought of going to the other one maybe i'll feel better but its way too far unless i get to move house to private house..that's so impossible.
Sigh. when will i get someone to go with me?
Lately i been going out and people looked at me with a very weird pair of eyes.
Even in church...
I hate that people.
Yesterday i went out with my mum to this hair salon
Everytime my mum talks to me or i stood up everyone looked at me unanimously
I got so unhappy with them and walked away.
So what is so weird with me?
Friends of mine who read this tell me please.